Let. NOTHING.Move.You.

I have been avoiding everything.

My thoughts, my blog, my God.

My future. My plan. My goals.

My calling.

Strict Avoidance and living purely in the moment.

God has been speaking to me, been trying to get through

sending me messages 

And I have been glossing them over,

Lightening them.

As I mentioned, avoidance.

I won't even tap into my own feelings.

?

And in the midst of this, I keep winning awards for my spirituality!

Sonlight Female award- out of all BCS female athletes

Outstanding Senior Award- out of our entire graduating class

If there is one thing graduating has shown me, it is that I have done a great job the past four years in living my life for Christ and letting others see it, learn from it, and change by it.

And somehow, in the very peak of my confusion...when I throughly think- "Any moment now someone is going to confront me, wondering why I have been acting like this..."

They are all praising my accomplishments

Praising my God for what he has done for me, and what they see him doing in the future.

So what's my problem?

Am I really going to go down like this? After everything.. after all I have been through, all God has given me.

Will I let this slip away?

Sunday morning's message was on complacency in your faith- that applies to me

Sunday night, Charles message was on being honest with fellow believers about what is going on in your life- that applies to me (especially concerning he and Kristen, as I lied to them about my own personal issues..)

God showed me this passage today:

1 Corinthians 15:55-58

"Where, O death, is your victory?

Where, O death, is your sting?"

"The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain."

THIS definitely applies to me. There is a calling on my life to shake this world up for Christ. To turn it upside down. To Change It. I can feel it, and so can everyone else it seems.

Yet lately, I have not been giving myself fully to the Lord's work.

It's driving me crazy cause, typically that is all I do. I've become lazy, in a certain respect, figuring I can pick up where I left of later.

Let. NOTHING.Move.You.

To whom much is given

Much will be required

I'm just wondering how much longer God will give me before he begins taking away....

When God speaks...

From God to me

[5.18.08]

Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you.

Just what are you running from?

Come back to me.

I miss you- you miss me

We were in love

And you know this

So, just what are you running from? You do not need those things. Look at what you are running to, Look at WHO you are running to. Where is he going to take you? What can you do with what he has to give you? Nothing.

You fall for his words like a honeybee starved for pollen. And so you are filled with his words. His thoughts, His ideas, His desires. But not mine.

 So why do you hang so tightly to him? I love him. I will save him.

 You must not let yourself think only your love can save him.

Show him my love, but stop forgetting me. You leave me behind when he speaks. Do you know how much that hurts me?

I love you, with an everlasting love. I Will Never Harm You. My Beloved, you are so afraid of being hurt, but you put so much trust into the wrong things.

Do you not see the pain you are headed towards?

Come back to me.

Return to me.

I can save you.

Listen. You know the truth. You know right. You know wrong.

  you know

Stop playing with the fire.

At a certain point, it will cease to be amusing.

It will claim you.

But, I have already claimed you.

 Come back to Me.

His love cannot fill you. My love WILL.

  You know my love.

But you do not know everything, and you are NOT ready to do this alone. Let yourself go. You claim to have freedom but you are so caught, so trapped.

   I can hear you crying, and I can save you, silence you, protect you.

Give me your heart,

And I will tell you what it says.

Today..

Happy Mothers Day!